But Hey...

You are
Looked down upon
Dismissed
Ignored

Until you are
Mounted
Bred
Fetishized.

But hey…
At least you’re getting some attention.

You are
Background to their success
Stepped on
Paraded

When you should be
Alongside them for all your efforts
Lifted up
Supported

But hey…
At least some of us are mainstream now.

Nevermind that
Their success comes at the expense of your respect
Their fun comes at the expense of your dignity
Their story comes at the expense of your pride.

But hey…
Let’s not nitpick.
At least some of “us” are making it big.

Trayvon Martin

If I, with black skin
Do offend your consciousness,
Do I deserve death?

--(c) Angelique Lazarus


Sign the petition: http://www.change.org/petitions/prosecute-the-killer-of-our-son-17-year-old-trayvon-martin

For more information about this sad, scary and ludicrous situation: http://motherjones.com/politics/2012/03/what-happened-trayvon-martin-explained

Keep your happiness away from me...
For all it brings me is the bitter reminder
Of my own lack.

Day 2: Something You Regret Not Having Done Last Year

Written May 13, 2011


Hmmm, this is a tough one since I actually did a lot of the things I wanted to do last year:

• get hired on at Stikeman Elliot after my field placement in the Law Clerk program I was doing; 
• leave Stikeman Elliot after my 3-month contract (lol); 
• start running and run in my first 5K race; 
• lose 20 lbs; 
• come to Korea to teach; 
• visit Japan; 
• get LASEK.... 

It was a very accomplished year for me, I'd say. =)

But if I had to pick something, I'd say I regret not having done more research on Korea before coming here. Not saying I wouldn't have come if I had (I may not have come). If I'd done more research, though, I'd have been better prepared to choose a good location and I would have had a better idea of what I was in for. As it was, a lot of things took me by surprise, but dealing with them was a good life lesson.... a lot of good life lessons, actually. And it's been an unparalleled experience.... it's like my Dad says, "Experience is what you get when you don't get what you want." lol Love you Daddy.

Day 1: Something I'm Looking Forward To This Year

Written May 12, 2011


I think, to anyone who's spoken to me at all in the last 8 months, that this one is obvious. I am looking forward to leaving Korea. As great an experience as some people have had and as much as I've learned from being here and as much as I've grown as a person; as a woman and as much as I've done some really cool things (Jeju, Wine Train, living in South Korea...), I'll be really happy to go home and be comfortable walking down the street without people staring then nudging their friends to stare too. I actually made a blog about Things/People I'm Looking Forward to When I Get Back to Toronto, so I'll talk about other things. Although I'm ready to ho home, I'm still looking forward to finishing my Korea Bucket List before I go. I'm also looking forward to visiting France for the first time in August. I'm a bit scared too, but I know it'll be great. After France, I'm looking forward to whatever I decide to do until next Fall when I hope to be in school again. So! Here's to the next few months!

28-Day Challenge

I missed being forced to write every day. I know I still could, but I've lost the compulsion to write that comes with knowing you made a commitment that you must honour. So, naturally I went to Google (and my Facebook status update) for ideas. I found a lot, actually, but I liked this one the most. Therefore, starting tonight, I will follow the below list (taken from Something For When You're Bored):

• Day 01: Something you're looking forward to this year.
• Day 02: Something you regret not having done last year.
• Day 03: Something with which you struggle.
• Day 04: Something that is part of your routine that you enjoy.
• Day 05: Something in life that gives you balance.
• Day 06: Something that excites you and fills you with joy.
• Day 07: Something at which you've been a champion or the best.
• Day 08: Something about which people seem to compliment you.
• Day 09: Something you hope to change about yourself and why.
• Day 10: Discuss some of the things on your bucket list.
• Day 11: Someone who has made your life worth living.
• Day 12: A band/musical artist whose music impacted your life.
• Day 13: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
• Day 14: Someone with whom you shared a friendship/relationship that simply drifted out of your life.
• Day 15: Someone you met randomly that's made an impact on your life.
• Day 16: Something that shook your belief system to its core (a big disappointment in your life).
• Day 17: Discuss your favorite movie and why it's so special to you.
• Day 18: Write about your best friend (not significant other) and what makes them special.
• Day 19: Describe a dark/turbulent moment in your life.
• Day 20: Describe a truly spiritual moment in your life.
• Day 21: Discuss a spontaneous moment in your life that that turned out to be fantastic.
• Day 22: Discuss something you planned that ended up not being what you expected.
• Day 23: How do you handle/deal with both success and failure?
• Day 24: What is your vocation (why are you here on earth)?
• Day 25: What is your biggest dream in life (what one great thing do you want to accomplish)?
• Day 26: What WAS your biggest dream in life (you wanted to do as a kid but no longer can)?
• Day 27: Someone in your family that means so much to you.
• Day 28: Epilogue: Write a letter to yourself.

I will post each of them, just maybe not right away.

I Still Know What Time It Is

(Written April 22, 2011)

Setting clocks in to the future.
Time distorted and shortened.
Little tricks to ensure optimal performance.
Though I try, the illusion never completes itself.
The trick inevitably fails;
My sense of reality remains unaltered.
I cannot trick myself for long.
I guess I'm just too smart.